Monday, November 8, 2010
Thoughts on a Gorgeous Fall Day
Back to the weekend. We lost a very special young man last week – a former swimmer, classmate of our children, son of good friends, teacher and mentor to his students, and only 40 years old. He left us far too early, but the impact he had on his students in his short life was tremendous. Would that I could have had that kind of impact on young people. We attended both the visitation and the funeral. At both his parents and brother were given an inkling of the positive role model he was for the youth of Grand Island. He will not be forgotten and his absence will leave a huge hole for family, friends, students, and co-workers. By being in attendance Friday evening and Saturday morning, we were able to see friends – parents and swimmers of the HYAC community from the 80s. What a joy to see friends and what a blessing their presence was to a grieving family and community.
Saturday evening we had the pleasure of seeing two former HYAC swimmers joined in marriage. Another gathering of the HYAC community from a different era – the 90s and later. That’s what happens when you stick around too long. You know too many people. We had a wonderful time visiting with friends and swimmers and catching up. And we got a chance to see the joy of a young couple beginning their life together. It was a beautiful wedding on a gorgeous fall day, the beauty of the wedding matching the day.
Life goes on. Children are born. Some of us die. We all die eventually. And tomorrow is another day. We will rejoice in seeing the grandchildren!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
A Year of Thoughts
Thoughts flit in and out of my head. It has been almost a year since posting any GrammyThoughts. So what have those thoughts been about?
Getting Older: The aches and pains that come with getting older are for the birds. And then when you have to take stupid medications for the problems that come with aging, they make the joints hurt even more. The meds have taken care of the high cholesterol for now so we’ll try half-dosage and see if the numbers still stay down. Mama had a stroke at a rather ‘young’ age and the high cholesterol seems to be familial on that side of the family so we will watch ourselves for now.
Grandchildren: They are such a JOY! Spending some time in San Francisco with the family and taking the little girls out to dinner showed me that little ones can behave very well, even in fancy restaurants (with the help of a ‘dress the Barbie’ app on Nef’s IPhone!). Helping Ute with her homework and watching Athena at her gym class playing with her mommy and daddy brought much joy to my heart! Spending time in Chicago with the little boys brings smiles to our faces. Zane knows where all the states are and tells us where he is going this month – a new state, Arizona. And Cael has never been there either so he will have to color in Arizona for both himself and for Cael. Cael is so very precious, but life just doesn’t get any easier for him. Grammy worries about him and about his family. There is never a day that is not stress-free or a day that does not bring another challenge for him. For a grammy that likes to live stress-free, watching the family, even from afar, really causes stress.
Retirement: Every time I get a few days off, or do something fun like traveling to Chicago or San Francisco but sandwiching everything in between work and more work, I wonder why I shouldn’t retire. Then I think about the insurance game and health issues, and I know why I am still working – it’s called bennies! But then when I am home with nothing to do, I get really lazy and do less than nothing, so maybe retirement isn’t a good option for me right now.
Reading: I have been keeping track of the books I have read so far this year – 36. I think I am trying to read everything I can get my hands on before the eyes give out on me;-) The books run the gamut from historical fiction to mystery to inspirational. What am I to say...this is part of my laziness. I have always loved to read, but it goes in spurts. And my taste changes from year to year too. What I like this year may not strike my fancy at all next year.
Swimming: OK, I still enjoy doing the work. When I no longer enjoy it, I will quit. I just wish things wouldn’t pile up all at the same time. And I wish others would learn to do their jobs so that I didn’t always have to clean up after the messes;-) Too many meets this summer. Big meets that cause anxiety. Big outdoor meets that cause real anxiety because I can’t control the weather. Anyone ever guess that I am a control-freak? I want control over my own life. I know the other people in my life like to control their own lives too. I tell them they can control all they want until the train starts to run off the track, and then I take over!
Volunteer stuff: Getting rid of it...one thing at a time. Gone are the PW books. Gone are the HYAC books. Two big responsibilities that I really didn’t want anymore! Relief! But then I volunteer for Session when asked and that adds more responsibility. I like to use my strengths, and by letting people know what those strengths are, I can use them, and not be bothered with doing things that I am not good at or do not like to do!
How’s that for a year’s worth of thoughts?
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Where does time go?
When I was little I used to practice writing the new year so that I wouldn’t make a mistake. The way time is flying, I maybe need to practice writing the new year – oh, maybe 100 times at least;-) I still catch myself putting 2008 on a check every now and then – and soon it will be 2010 and I haven’t even mastered 2009 yet.
Yesterday I was planning for family being home for a few days – today I am saying goodbye to 2/3 of that family and holding on for a few more days to the 1/3 that is still here. Yesterday I was anxiously waiting for winter to be over. Now summer is almost gone and the joy of having the family home for a few days is only in my heart.

Picture is of the extended Kooy family minus Esteban. (We missed him.) From left to right, Liz, Cael, Zane, Adrian, Betty, Heidi, Ute, Nef, Athena, Jan and Vern.

Liz, Heidi, and Ute

Liz, Adrian, and Jan at Liz's 20th HS class reunion
Athena
Why is it that when one is a child time seems to pass so very slowly? One is able to savor the year – all the special holidays, enjoy the time of anticipation, enjoy the days, and then enjoy savoring the memories. When one gets older, everything is just so jam-packed together that we can’t smell the coffee, let alone the roses.
I will try to savor the wonderful memories of having kids and grandkids home. I will try to enjoy working each day – even though every minute brings me closer to tomorrow. I will relish each sunny day, each star-lit night, and even each rainy day and cloudy night. I will cherish the times spent with family and friends and try to disencumber myself from so many ‘jobs’ that suck all of the time and pleasure out of life.
Tomorrow is another day...one day closer to January 1, 2010...whatever that day and year will bring. I will greet the morn with joy!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Thoughts on Education - Five Years + Later

In the fall of 2003 I decided to pursue an MA program in Distance Education through the University of Phoenix. I chose that program because I knew UOP did online education very well, because I had been involved in DE for quite a few years, and because I thought I could finally accomplish the MA while still living in the middle of Nebraska – on my own time and in my own way.
Students at CCC who seek to do ‘individualized’ courses at a distance have a lot of flexibility regarding due dates, how they turn in their work, and when and where they complete that work – perhaps way too much flexibility. The UOP program that I completed had some flexibility, but not too much. I chose to take the degree as recommended – six weeks of class, one week off, six more weeks of class, until all 33 hours (12 courses) were completed in about 19 months. Each class had a syllabus, a list of assignments and deliverables, and due dates for each of the deliverables. In the 19 months I only missed one deadline (by about 13 hours) because of an eye injury. And I completed the work with a 4.0 GPA.
Now…what was going on in my life while I took that program. I was home by myself during the week (Vern was working in Omaha), working two jobs, traveling on occasion to see the kids (new grandbaby), doing my usual swim meets both locally and in Lincoln and Omaha, and dealing with Vern’s illness, surgeries, and his cancer diagnosis. There were many times when I could have said, “I just can’t do this!” There were many times when it was not convenient to get my assignment done on time. There were many times that I had to go through extreme measures to find connectivity to be able to either enter the required discussions, upload my work, or collaborate with my assigned team on a particular project. I tried the local library (to make sure I had that option if my connection broke down); I made sure Vern’s laptop was ready to interface with the classroom; I had my PC set up at work to interface with the class; and of course my PC at home was set up as my main classroom access. Vern’s laptop went to California, Chicago, Atlanta, swimming conventions, etc with me (although he was not terribly happy about losing his window to the world). But I did it.
When Vern got sick in the fall of 2003 we knew things weren’t right, but little did we know how very wrong they were. We went to San Francisco to meet Ute and there I used the Macs of the kids for my classroom connection. Vern was very sick – very tired and very lethargic, and slept a lot. I still got my work done. He continued to go to work that fall and early winter, but not without a lot of effort. I continued my classes and signed up for the 2nd and 3rd course in the program. After Christmas local doctors decided it was time to do some serious checking. CT scans showed a large mass in the abdomen. Exploratory surgery done locally revealed a tumor too large and involved for the local surgeons to deal with. I continued with my work, my swimming job, and my class work. It was decided that UNMC was the best place with the best doctors to try to deal with the issue. I continued with my course work, ran my swim meets (including one in Omaha staying at Vern’s apartment), and got ready to stay in Omaha and camp at UNMC hospital for a week or so, continuing my studies. While Vern was in surgery I read. While he was hospitalized I sat in his room, curled up in a recliner, and read. I used his laptop at his apartment to upload my work. I never missed an assignment or a due date.
When Vern had healed somewhat, we traveled to Atlanta for a family wedding. I had hotel connectivity, but not much time. I didn’t miss any assignments, but I didn’t respond to the discussions like I usually did. I did get docked at bit in that class for that. But we also had a ‘green’ instructor and he really didn’t know what he was doing, so I didn’t get too concerned.
By the fall of 2004 work, swimming, online classes, and normal every-day stuff all were just a part of my life. I was able to download the textbooks at least three weeks prior to the start of each class. By the time the last class rolled around I was an old pro. In the spring of 2005 I scratched my eye. I couldn’t function. One assignment just had to be late…using an excuse the instructor understood as she had recently had eye surgery. When I finished the program I was ready to be finished, but I also knew I would miss the intellectual interaction with my fellow students.
My degree was granted 40 years to the day after my BA had been granted. I felt I had accomplished a worthy goal. I had completed an advanced degree. I had completed it in the prescribed time. I had never been late or missed an assignment (with one exception). I had a 4.0 GPA. As an Adult Education professional I knew that this was quite an accomplishment. None of the roadblocks thrown in my path had caused me to stumble or change direction. I have tried to process reasons for my success. I don’t quit when I start something. I am a true adult learner. I need to succeed for my own internal reasons. I had a point to prove – that despite the obstacles we as adult learners encounter, we can succeed and achieve IF we put our minds to it and IF we persevere. We chose our successes or our failures. If we chose to find excuses, we can find those excuses. If we chose to get the job done, we can get it done despite normal inconveniences or not-so-normal life-altering events. It is a choice. And my choice was to succeed!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Going Home...When Home Isn't There
A fast six day trip with so much crammed into it that I can't remember half! I rented a small car and traveled south out of the Ontario Airport on Haven and headed for dairy country - home! I was totally astonished at how many houses had tarps on roofs (no one is going to fix anything that is going to be bulldozed for new construction - when the economy picks up in So Cal). I saw that 'our house' was still there - but it looks so different from the clean white with dark green trim that Papa kept up. My neighbors' houses are still there too...but definitely not the clean, neat dairy country of my youth. After driving around a bit I headed to Inland Home. I made a quick visit with the mother of a first grade classmate. She still recognized me (my stature is pretty much a give-away)! I visited with a dear friend who was my rock and support when Mama and Papa were in Inland - she is now in the Alzheimer's wing and she is only 65. We sang some hymns together. The words are embedded in the brain - both hers and mine. I drove to Ontario and stopped to see a high school classmate and had dinner with her - what a joy to visit with her. I stayed with Evelyn in her lovely Upland home, we visited, and remembered the past together...especially Case.
I drove to Hemet and couldn't figure out where my cousins live because I printed out the Mapquest map with the wrong address. Thank goodness for cell phones - but Donald must think I am a complete idiot. We had a great time catching up quickly. We did take a quick trip to the hospital to see Cousin Joyce as her husband was in surgery. Elaine put on a great spread for lunch. I called friend Joyce (another high school classmate and long time friend) and got directions from cousins' to her new home...and I found that easily. Joyce and I played catch-up in all too short a time - I had seen her last in San Diego at least 5 or 6 years ago. Very quickly it was time to head south to San Diego and the Swimming Workshop...which was the purpose of the trip anyway.

Picture is of Betty, Cousin Joyce (the little ones in the family) and Cousin Donald and his wife Elaine. I'm the kid in the group. The three of them are 80ish.
San Diego was beautiful at this time of the year. Everything was in bloom. We stayed in a beautiful hotel that overlooks the bay and ocean. We socialized with USA Swimming friends and attended a workshop. Saturday we were bussed downtown to a training center. It was a very good workshop and training. Two friends and I were dropped off at the harbor area and decided to tour the USS Midway. Although we arrived rather late in the afternoon we were still able to see most of the carrier. The audio tour gave us lots of historical information. The evening meal at the Red Marlin was superb. Watching the sunset over the water was magnificent. An early morning walk to Belmont Park brought back memories of a high school band trip that included time in Belmont Park. After a couple hours of unstructured workshop I was on my way to La Quinta.

It has been MANY years since I have been in the California desert and I was looking forward to both the drive and the visit. Neither disappointed. The drive through San Gorgonio pass was incredible...watching 3200+ windmills churning and generating electricity for 1000s of people. Why can't Nebraska harness all of our wind? Trying to find Julia in La Quinta took a few phone calls and directions. Again I had a wrong address and printed out wrong maps. But we found her in a lovely home in a gated community in La Quinta. We spent lots of time catching up. She took me to a great spot for a quick, reasonable meal - the Cliff House at the bar! Best fries ever! We relaxed, walked, did a little shopping, enjoyed the wonderful warm weather (not too hot yet). We enjoyed another meal together at the Cliff House and I got on the road heading back to Upland and Evelyn.

Now I knew where I was going...right! Julia mentioned taking the 210 (I have normally traveled the 60) and which exit I should get off and I heard Carnelian and Campus. I thought Carnelian as I needed gas. I got off, got gas, and headed 'east' as I thought I was 'west' of Euclid and Evelyn's home and pretty soon I was at Archibald. WHAAAAT! Where the h... am I? OK, stupid. Remember that you used to take Carnelian to get to Joyce's when she lived in Alta Loma? Carnelian is EAST of Euclid! Am I lost? Not really. Just delayed a bit and at Evelyn's a little later than I wanted to be. We visited a bit and both headed to bed as I had a very early flight (0 dark 30), and E was facing surgery on Thursday.
Trip home was uneventful...early flight left on time, arrived on time in Denver. I made my connections and arrived in Omaha on time. The drive home was uneventful - but long. I was very glad to be home.
I have a love-hate relationship with traveling. I love to go and visit with friends and family and see new places and things. I hate to be away from home. My psyche is much more grounded when I am within the confines of home.
But going 'home' after being away most of the last 50 years is still a wonderful experience, especially when one can rekindle past close relationships with family and friends.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
The Swim Meet from H...
This is the second year in a row that Hastings has hosted the meet. (No one else wants to host it because it is such a marathon/nightmare.) We have designed it so that it runs as well as it possibly can. We seed like events together and score them separately by age group. We put the long session in the morning (8:30 a.m. - 1:10 p.m. - should have been done at 12:30 p.m. but...). If we get through that, we are home free.
I backed up the meet at 5:10 p.m. yesterday. I only had a couple of timing corrections and only one parent-from-h...! I consider that a HUGE success!
The concessions income was tremendous but a HUGE amount of work. We think we will let someone else handle it next year!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
A One Year Journey
I joined a team at work through N-Lighten Nebraska. I weighed myself - or rather had a co-worker weigh me and refused to look - and I began to follow some of the guidelines of the plans. I journaled what I was eating. I tried to eat what I was supposed to eat. I tried to get some more sleep. I tried to relax. And I tried to get some exercise. I had the co-worker weigh me weekly, still not looking - until I lost 10 lbs. Then I began to wonder where I actually was. By that time I was around 132 lbs.
On March 17, 2008, I found The Daily Plate and since that time have been logging in everything that I put in my mouth - almost daily. By the end of October I weighed 117 lbs. I have put on a couple of pounds since then and today I am starting another N-Lighten Nebraska journey, hopefully to get a few more pounds off and remain healthy.
Over the last year there are several things that I have decided work well for me and things that I need to do to maintain my health for the rest of my life.
1. Journal everything that I eat. When I don't, I am wont to put more in my mouth than I should, and also probably putting in some wrong things.
2. Portion control is most important. I really need to measure because sometimes my eyes are bigger than my stomach. OK, that is an old expression of my mother's.
3. Be extremely vigilant and be aware of what I am actually eating, when I am eating, how much I am eating, and where I am eating.
4. Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day.
5. Get some exercise at least 5 days a week. I have been mostly walking, even walking the treadmill. I still use the age and time excuses for not doing more.
6. Find a support system. The co-worker who helped me begin this journey is still encouraging me. Another co-worker is walking with me. The groups on TDP have been great encouragement. Even oldman is joining me on my journey now.
7. Cook my own meals. Pack my own lunch. This way I know what I am eating and can make good decisions. If I must eat out, I try to make reasonable decisions on both the choice and the portion.
Thank you to all who have supported me along the way. Here's to another year of good health!